eh,

The interview went okay today. They asked me the usual corporate questions like "why are you the best applicant?" "What are your strengths/weaknesses?" "Is there any a time where you felt overwhelmed?" "What are your career goals with this company?" blah blah... then all of a sudden I hear "do you have time to do a project for us?" ummmm.... excuse me? in my head I'm thinking "did they just offer me a job?" but no, no they didn't, it was just another part of the interview. They gave me 45 minutes, a Mac, and an info sheet that said what they wanted... and a folder on the desk top with text and graphics. This is the part I feel like I want to cry and say "nevermind, I'm really an idiot and under this pressure, I turn into a ball of tears and snot" but then I opted to be a little more.... confident. I sat down and remembered that I hadn't worked in InDesign for like a year and a half... but I calmed myself the hell down and went to work. I'm not completely happy with the outcome, and I finally remembered how to do some of the stuff with only 2 minutes left... but nonetheless, I finished it and he said "not bad." In my head I heard "not the worst peice of shit I've ever seen, but close" whatever, I go back to the confident "my interview and portfolio kicked ass" attitude and took his critisism and his good points and then I got to explain what I would have changed about it. Then he gave me a tour of the "back" where they print the posters and all that good stuff, where everyone in the room turned and stared at me while he showed me around. I figure he wouldn't have given me a tour of the facility if I wasn't at least in the top 5 or 10 of the other applicants... right? RIGHT?! right.

So there I was, walking out of the office 2 hours later... yes, 2 hours. I'm done analysing the hell out of the interview cause I can't change anything. I knew I should have worked with InDesign before I went into the interview, I just figured if I got the job, I would start reading my old book and practice at home first...but anyway... I stopped by the hotel after my interview just to talk to Eric and Jan about coming back to the hotel if this graphic gig doesn't happen for me. Although I got a very funny vibe from the both of them, I still wouldn't mind coming back. Eric said "yeah you really have to have a desire to work in the hotel business to want this job, I thought you were going to get a job in your field...is photography really that hard of a business to get into? idiot. you want to loan me a billion dollars to start my own business. Besides, if you have forgotten I had your job for 5 years, and you don't need to talk to me about desiring this position. If anyone actually DESIRES this position, they have a screw loose. He said that I should have a desire to work in the hotel industry as a career to really get "into" the job... yeah ass, thanks for the Pep talk.

I'm so very sad that I don't have my hubby around me for Valentine's Day. I remember the first Valentine's Day we had together. We had only been dating for one month. He gave me a cute black teddy bear holding a little red flower and 6 roses. (He and AMadon split a dozen roses for me and Jess, Amadons first girlfriend). I put the flowers in my homeroom and by the end of the day EVERYONE knew about it and everyone was telling me how lucky I was to get such a great boyfriend. That was back in the day when we celebrated our monthly anniversaries and he would buy me a flower on the 15th of every month. He did that for like a year and a half, no lie. I also got a lot of poems. Such a hopeless romantic.

On Saturday we went shopping for bridesmaid dresses for Ambers wedding. That was... interesting. Amber found a couple of dresses she likes though, so it was all good. I have, however, decided to wait for a couple of months to get pregnant. Not that I have a say in when the powers to be would like me to get preggers.... but we were planning on getting the ball rolling (if you get my drift) sometime next month (this has been our plan for about a year and a half)but we've moved our plan back a couple of months. One less thing Amber doesn't have to worry about. One of her bridesmaids is already pregnant and another has been trying for quite a while. I think the dresses Amber has chosen are really cute. They're calf high... and they'll be a pretty goldish color and I think everyone will look magnificant in them. I must admit, I was being a little picky when it came to trying on dresses, and to Amber I publicly apologize. But I had fun, and I think it was neat seeing all the dresses, its been a long time since I've gotten to try on pretty dresses. Anyway....

wow... rambling... I'll stop now.

Happy Valentine's Day!