my sista and more baby babble

My lil' sis came to visit with her b/f Ryan. We went out to Applebees and had some fun.

I'm beginning to fear for my life living in this house. I think it has something against us, its trying to tell us to get the hell out. First, the plumming backs up and floods our bathroom. Then our Roof leaks all over our bed... and I'm not talking little drops.. I'm talking steady stream, THEN the electrical box starts on fire just from flipping a breaker. Plus, I keep snagging my pants on the damn door latch in the bathroom... which is just annoying. A couple of weeks ago, Ben stepped on our step going into the living room, and the things just cracked... (you can't see it, it split inside) thats not safe.

So we're contacting our realator, and looking for a new house. This time to buy, not rent. The house we were looking at in January is still up for sale, and went down in price to 105K which is REALLY GOOD. WHich makes me wonder, what is wrong with the house that we didn't see? and is it going to be hard to sell when we want to move again? You know what our realtors name is? Jerry Weletsgo... and when he introduces himself he says "I'm Jerry Weletsgo as in "Well lets go" buy a house!" That is when we knew we liked him.

So I'm waiting for some sign that I'm carrying a human being inside of me. I'm not sick, I'm not tired. I have to pee a lot, but thats it. So Its really hard to think that there is all that mirical stuff going on in me, and I can't even feel it. I guess I'm just going to have to be patient. I'm just excited that the baby will get its neural tube this week :) WOO HOO yay for the nervous system, am I right? I'm so right.

Work is... meh. I love my job.. I really do, and I couldn't have asked for a better manager. That woman has the patients of a saint. If I were her, I'd be going home and hittin' the bottle hard, because that job can be very trying at times. However, its hard to stay positive when every week that I've been back, I've been told by someone who has NO freakin' athority to do so, that I'm not doing my job very efficiently. Actually I've had to hear these things second hand. To be honest, I can take constructive critisism and advise most of the time when it comes to work. I really want to know if there is something that I can do better, or improve on.. and I keep trying to remind myself that when this person claims that I'm not doing my job well enough, but its getting harder. I could sooooooooo rant on about this for a long time, but details are not important beings as I am trying to learn to blow things off more and not let things get to me as much as they do (mommy in training)

But still, my manager has told me that she is the only person that can evaluate my performance and she says that I'm efficient and that I work hard. But its tough to think that, even when I try my best to get everything done, some people may think that I'm slacking. I'm trying to think of a way that I can be more efficient, or move faster or maybe I'm just in the wrong routine... need a different routine and things will work better. Any ideas?

All I know, is that this baby thing is on my mind all the time, never a moment that its not, I just manage to squeeze other daily activities and thoughts in there too. Distracting, yes. Do I care that it is distracting.... nope. because everytime I think about it, I get in a better mood, nothin' wrong with that!